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RESISTANCE TO SELF I just want to be the best that I can be
I want to be the change
I want to see in the world I just want to find that missing something for me . . .
Because of which I will open up to love as I never did before
So what can I do to find you and be me?
May be stop avoiding life with all its little surprises
Stop fearing the many challenges along the way
Stop resisting the constant change in my growing soul
Easy to realize, interesting to write, courageous to do It seems that resistance has turned into a cozy habit
Hidden well behind a positive attitude and dormant creativity
Only to show its unexpected power in the weirdest of times
It starts with the desire not to do things we have to
And delves into the convenient escape from the ‘should’s’
To find refuge into an accepted avoidance and self-indulgence
That tempts into a total resistance and complete self-denial It must not be as bad as it wants me to believe

So I’d better have more self-acceptance and self-love
For I know I am turning my self-defense within
In the worst war of the Ego against the Resisting Self If ‘happening’ was as easy as ‘believing’ is after ‘seeing’
I would be saved from the torture of further resistance
But resisting has become my hidden internal reaction
To everything that needs commitment, persistence and calm
Cultivating that internal balance, poise and peace of mind
Naturally goes through overcoming such resistance to self
And I hope and pray and believe that I will find both
The will and the way to light the path of resistance with love.

Created Oct. 2002 By Darina S.

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